Internet Letter - “Manifesto of Escape” - Mention of Cake
This is a resend of the internet letter, and once again if I find a link that pops up I’ll send that. It makes mention of Cake, the other one didn’t go through as desired. The letter is assumed to have been sent to the Norwegian Consulate. The spelling errors where said to be from a rush to leave. Thought John Mcrea might be interested in this…take care.
Hey XXXX,
My name is XXXX XXXX, a “student” at Columbia University. I’m going to
just going to be blunt. I really don’t like or identify with anyone in
this place, and I really don’t like the things shoveled down my throat
ever since I was born about the things I was supposed to do and think.
My way of thinking, my stubbornness, and my cementing principles that
I’ve felt I hold entirely on my own independent of everyone around me
has pushed me to the point that I had to get out of here as soon as
possible in order to protect them and get to a place I have longed for
my entire life in every sense of that statement from geographical,
environmental, and socially as the bits and pieces of things I’ve tried
to hold onto in this place over the years disappear and it could not be
clearer to me why it happens. I not around my kin, my ilk, my natural
place of being. I was forced into thinking my own kin and culture was
wrong and where bad people who wanted to hurt me. As of Spring I was
told I finished all of the silly logical bs, that means nothing to get a
piece of paper saying I’ve completed something with Columbia’s marketed
brand of stupid, and I just don’t care enough to deal with it anymore or
even dare have any of them to dare believe I have any remote association
with them. I’m selling all of my stuff and moving home and I’m going to
check my baggage at the door here as I am so tired of this place. I
don’t feel I ever need to answer anyone else’s question of why I am
moving there, so I figure I’ll just do it once here for good with
someone I fleeting feel I can trust so here I go.
I am writing this because I want to tame and contain my worry about the
obstacles I don’t know exist in me moving that are only in my
imagination. I have to come clean with them and bring it all out in
order and hope someone will agree with the part of me that says any
support of the people who organized this place, and not seeing it
altogether as nothing more than Indian Graveryard, is fucking stupid. I
WANT to be judged and considered based on my ethnicity and considered
for who I am on a physical level towards my acceptance by anyone who
sees an issue with me co-existing in that environment in that land but
entirely accept if I am not accepted but I feel I deserve to come home
to my land that I have been lied to that doesn’t exist. I want this
despite the diluted ideas spread here of pretending everyone is the same
when they most certainly are not, and those who view that as being
negative. There are people here like me who want the same things but
they biologically and radically differ from the mindsets of asshole
people who never had any and wittingly projected that on other people in
order to force something that was never natural which will never make
them satiable and it will never work as long as the world exists. I have
learned that people who find negative in that hurt people and are
entirely groundlessly and forcibly arrogant because they try to
metaphysically (which is crazy unnatural physical thinking when all
feelings come from that are from abuse and brainwash) they are better
than others and other people hearing you being honest about liking your
own kind will be offended by them speaking any truth which is so dumb
and irrational and being sympathetic to that bullshit is something that
hurts EVERYONE, like people trying to associate with dogs and cats and
believe they are their “friends” unless they tame and force them to be
around them. I can’t repress my natural way of being which is what these
assholes call “wild” when it is not chaos at all and is why you see so
many zombie abusive people who not only enslave horses into stables but
people as well. The chaotic minded people of the world are entirely
contained in and of themselves and they create and partake in ridiculous
rituals to try and convince them that its the outside world and not
their own crazy heads, and the more time that goes by the more they try
to create that chaos in the minds of everyone else around them and you
see in almost every song, book, movie made that isn’t about the stupid
Holocaust they only points fingers as the insanity of the people being
persecuted who not only ran it but also all knew about it and never
asked for help because they thought THEN they would be accepted by the
world and it will never happen as long as they never ask for help as
being insane people who invented all of the garbage you see everywhere.
The entire bullshit idea of “United States” is such horseshit as people
are forced to live around each other because of lies and bs as its a
land of forced co-dependence. And what makes me mad are that my
motivations for wanting to go to Norway have nothing to do with escaping
something that I’m sure people will try to falsely label it as this was
my natural path home as this is anti-nothing, it’s just the natural
gravity towards home blocked by the irrational reasons that I shouldn’t
that I hope can be kwelled by people who can understand and argue and
agree with me when not a single person I’ve come in contact with says
anything more than anger at me leaving them in some artificial debt
structure on every imaginable human level. I won’t a Norwegian to say,
you don’t owe anyone shit but we want to help you because you love the
land and aren’t going to screw it up. I want to know that there is good
in the world as I have been just a vessel for people to mooch off of and
people are angry when they get cut off when their container is leaking
and I’m starting to overflow being stuck here. I help people more than
myself and then when I don’t even do anything, or don’t pay attention to
someone enough, there is some weird coincidental situation that
misrepresents me I get impulsvely accused of being selfish and being a
jerk when I didn’t do anything wrong, and then they come back asking for
me, and I get chewed out. It’s impossible to deal with but so
incredibility relevant on so many levels to the acts of nonsense on the
natural world that the broad ethnically balanced people of the world
need to stop caving into. This is a bunch of people who will bump into a
table and then kick it like its the source of its error, when the good
people are consumed trying to figure out how they got screwed up and can
find a way out, and the few other people are just always unstable
paranoid zombies believing the world is bad and are obsessed with
security on a GLOBAL level trying to consume it which will NEVER work
when there is nothing wrong with it but the screwed up broken unstable
clocks in their brains that people naturally are out of sync with I get
falsely persecuted here by people who fake persecution on purpose and
love to see any good people get screwed instead of redirecting their
anger in the right direction, and there are people in this world who
should do that to themselves. The wrong people are committing suicide on
every level here the second they embrace or come in contact with any
aspect on this place as these people are just puppets for crazy morons.
Just look at Marion Raven and how much she got screwed over and turned
into nothing but bitterness which only screwed up people could possibly
dance too or think is “cool” unless they are naturally insatiable
screwed up people who love to see people they want to be look at screwed
up and depraved as them.
I can’t process stupid class and labeling systems because its makes
absolutely no sense in every aspect of that statement. I wouldn’ve
stayed and created an environment relative to principles of my own as I
am easily satiable, but like I said, these things go away and I are so
obvious to me why as long as I have to live around abused and abusive
pieces of shit who broadcast lies every which away about how people
should live and make up imaginary rules that don’t apply to anything
natural and good which is literally people pretending they are like me
and oppressing myself and other people and it is all too real. The
principles I’ve kept are universally accepted by the relatively
ethnically intact people in the world relative to what I know to be a
thorough consideration of everyone I’ve come in contact with, as I yearn
for an organized environment where people are actually free and arenæt
forced to pay attention or give a shit about each other because everyone
is entirely independent and feels the same way, and don’t waste their
lives worrying and being paranoid about every nuance of their
surroundings they project upon and can’t control to validate the
ridiculous cultlike identity crisis in this swamp by bizarre
self+defeating people. People are being taught that ethic relationships
are horrible which is such nonsense, and its happen all through history
the second these crazy people see others happy and protecting that happy
and lie and manipulate and stage crap to try and make people as
self-loathing as they are as they even show off that they hate each
other to confuse people and try and establish false relationships that
they can leech and mooch off of under a lie everyone knows and feels. My
way of living is never assuming anything bad, not locking my doors,
being optimistic about everyone around me, and never criticizing
anything unless I have a solution, and if I do not care to change it or
it seems like the issue is too abstract to bother dealing with on a
micro-level and I leave it and follow it to the next stage of the
environment, and I hope you can easily see how that has caused a
ridiculous amount of inconvenience in a place like this, and adaptation
here is backpeddling in my book. Staying here means being entirely
isolated and I hate that. Well my path led me from the depths of the
Bible-belt here, to NYC, and now I have perspective on what the issues
are here and in the world and I really believe it starts to end with me
acting on what I know: that I have always been a functioning part of the
land of Norway and I long to live there and contribute every ounce of my
energy to those around me there in the most progressive way possible. It
has been exhausting for me to carry around my roots since I was born and
never feeling comfortable enough to put them down anywhere in
undeserving polluted land and containing my high-energy until I know my
efforts and contributions will be things that will be progressive,
protected and not exploited by anyone around me relative to some selfish
agenda, and that is something that is impossible in a place that is
nothing short of some cult-like behavior here and what honestly is
nothing more than an Indian graveyard, with tombstone as cars and
epitaphs like Cherokee which is unbelievably audacious to see as well as
the proponents that drive that in every sense of that word. Although I
really worry about the affects the marketing lies of “American ideas”
that consumes innocent people as self-ranking themselves the best or
great with some out of context absolutist lie when most of the people
there are hopped up on steroids and antidepressants to try to maintain
some pointless demoting insatiable view of themselves which is so
stupid, because the exciting things you see in movies here actually
reflects things that really, really suck to live around here. For
instance, why is the EU being created and personal borders opening up!?
Out of sympathy for what and who, a big witting lie that will face
itself eventually so the sooner the better before people screw the world
up more than it is and the people alive today deserve peace now. It
scares me so much that people are actually RESPONDING to these lies and
marketing and people actually feel they are inferior to the most
unpeaceful miserable f-heads on the planet.
After buying a subscription to TV2 Sumo, I see alot of emulation of
“American” programs in what I hope is mockery as opposed to trying to
embrace it and compete with something bad that makes its own rules up
that affect no one, that fuels itself on trying to suck people in by
either claiming to own a person and ideas from “foreigners”, and never
telling them they are better so it just ends up making them
“Americanized” in this ridiculous discrediting dehumanizing machine
pumping here. There should never be a need for democracy, but when
electing dictators is marketed to people as being direct control of the
things that affect them and rules they agreed to follow based on a lie.
I’ve seen people confused and unhappy even on their deathbed and it has
infuriated me to no end enough to never compromise and find a way to not
preach a perspective but a system where people naturally have a choice
and never needing rules and they will have no fear of it being abused
against them which is something I and good people will protect and make
sure of. This is a system that blood-thirsty greedy people here tried to
con me into giving up and I was able to break free of it, and I am being
vague about the topic for a reason. But its quite clear pthe methods
have been developed for years on how to manipulate people in their
artificial control.
Its just so empty for people to be creative here when the only marketed
risk no one is taking is depending on themselves only and not giving
money to American gangsters who give nothing back that they promise,
like a mob or a Pyramid scheme, and identify the things that hurt them
and protecting themselves no matter who it is and after each generation
the memory of the past gets distorted to the point I am so angry that
after 25 years of never comprising I somehow identify the fact that I am
entirely Norwegian and when I investigate it, people mock it because
they have no identity and feel alone for no reason when 240 million
people here have a natural background and none of them are taught it and
are all brainwashed and miserable and want to leave deep down and can’t
put it in perspective, even when they try, like I said there is a group
of people throughout history that had to create one and never good so
instead of being creative they try to falsely control the culture of
others and annihilate it which will never work but it is fueled by that
reality because they are too fucking weak to help themselves as they try
to consume names and the bloodline of others. I am one thousand times
more stubborn than anyone around me in what is some hopeless war of
attrition here while learning every trick in their book and more on my
own. I think the internet is slowly opening people’s eyes to the outside
world and people in other places really need to know that people here
have NO IDEA what is going on in the outside world in a fully
architected control apparatus. When I say I am Norwegian and I love that
culture more than anything else because it is every single idea,
environment, feelings that I have been stubbornly drawn to be
interrupted by crazy people, and I just want to be around my people,
people look at that as something awful which is nothing short of insane.
I have learned that when they leave they cry or are upset and secretly
start looking up and investings where they are from despite lying to my
face about how much it sucks, despite if my counterexample was enough to
resonate. This is no joke, I had to expense so much to get that sanity
check from people and I’m through testing it. There is a real crisis
going on here and no one in the outside world realizes the people who
lie and say they know what is going on, but when people come in the
opposite is true, and honestly its comparable to what is going on in
North Korea, and people hate that place because it reflects their lie,
and vice versa because it is the same spread problem as they are
threatening by someone daring to control what they want to control. A
real peaceful place would be so threatened and I never could figure out
why the focus was on the outside world, while they deny any perspective
in it in their insatiable tunnel vision, and dont pay attention to the
homeless people I see people walk my entire life here, until one day, I
shit you not, a homeless saw me sitting on a subway bench and offered ME
a quarter for my “educations”. I about did a backflip realizing that
people should be not teaching but validating peoples natural emotions
and ways of being and try to protect them from it when they need help,
as that guy doing that could be construed by teaching me a lesson, but
it entirely validated every single thing I was worried about seeing a
man who was the richest man in the city giving away something he didn’t
need anymore. I told him no because know one needs nonsense that
represents nothing but a collection system of stupid. If anyone
considers this contraversial there are simply trying to validate lies
seperate from every bit of labels and word and brainwash that has
nothing to do with anything pertaining to their natural state of being,
which is so silly people don’t pay attention to that,and I hope this all
sounds extreme to someone on the outside which means they are unaffected
and are agreeing with me but it is all so very true, and therefore
irrelevant to the issues contained here with the human populus and our
experiences with each other.
There should be a true uprising from the rest of the world that BABIES
here who did NOTHING wrong are abused in the most horrific way with NO
anethesia seconds after being born are mutilated here within some crazy
cultlike scheme, it is insane how no one is aware of the motivations
behind male circumcision to emasculate the people they are scared of and
I maintain all of my anger and original aggressiveness and passion
despite that witting attempt. It is a false invention of the *original
sin* of being a happy chirping person that these people tried to steal
from the rest of the world abuse them into being company to their
natural fucking misery that has absolutely no relevance to everyone
else, They created monumental amoounts of censorship to try and hide
behind and lies and misdirection to avoid being the cause, and all
someone has to do is see the people who gravitate to “Howard Stern” on
the radio, yet see how insatiable this asshole is and making people
miserable around him and whining all over the place to people who call
in trying to help him and side with him, who has similar anger but don’t
yet realize thats exactly the force that they are angry at who thinks
absolutely nothing of anyone around the guy but endlessly trying to
solve whatever problem occured in his head being of too naturally
isolated gene pools. All the while the same amount of value and fun and
more exists entirely independent of that sphere from a person who
surrounds himself with what people listen to and falsely claims it for
himself which will never last. I can’t live in this place where people
are DYING because of this horseshit and those who have perspective are
scared to act and hand an ounch of their being over to ungrateful people
who should be ignored. They deserve all the persecution they invented
but negative atetntion is still attention and I don’t care how many of
them put themselves on a cross when no one beleives lies anymore I don’t
care, let them work out their own masochistic desires on their own. The
problem is that people don’t understand the TRUTH behind the minds of
people lost from their original natural homelands void of any scheme to
be above everyone and marketting and lies pulls them in and they hate it
and spend a lifetime trying to validate why they were around when any
person in the world would leave a house that is on fire.
While everyone else naturally wants to help people, some people just
cannot be treated as people and I do not feel I should face any tension
when I go home but I fully understand why if I was there I was be
skeptical beyond compare of anyone who came out of that swamp but I
assure you I have taken more than enough showers to the point of going
raw to finally start my life where it belonged. There is no fear of the
world going to crap because the attention and efforts of the world was
all because of a lie and why every “pyramid scheme” ALWAYS falls apart.
This created an out of perspective sink in human history the second they
snap out of the marketting bullshit that the world was waking up to
before WW2 in Germany and recently in 911 but this time people aren’t so
stupid thanks to the strong wills of the few who stand alone. None of
this crap is the meaning of my life nor my direction, its just the great
need for a consolidated system that protects what billions of people on
the planet want void of the lies of craziness contained in the mind of
the very few and disposable from the human consciousness. This can only
be considered crazy if its a lie, and only CRAZY people could say its
wrong to pin a 4 year old down and cut them with a knife, and scream of
abuse and horrifying haunting memories, while thinking going 4 years
before could not possible be anything as much more insane. It’s not
enough to shoot something down as stupid without tracing the
implications of it and containing it to the souce and then stepping away
and realizing it was and could never be yourself and those that realize
it is better watch out and contain themselves and accept the persecution
which is being IGNORED because of the shit they do, and the deaths and
lies and abuse of the years not only more than validates ignoring them,
but soooo much more retaliation to strip them of their bonkers control
of everything. But this is only treated by perspective and my reasons
for saying all of this is the connection to not the problems but THE
problem and hoping Norwegians have this in perspective and haven’t been
affected by it considering no one is telling them that that place sucks
while they try to rationlize it while feeling like they have no
opportunity while tracing their artifical “debt” to idiot people around
which is nonsensical. However any idiot can look at Norwegian folklore
and stories and the trolls and its exact connections to reality after
the spread of this crap from the middle east that repressed them
realizing what the direct and contained source was. Just look at the ADL
who is trying CENSOR GOOGLE of all things to take down every website
that says anything remotely negative about these hypocrits who are
disgusting even relative to their own standards they try to perfect as
they are the most crazy, mentally unstable nutjobs on the planet. There
is no mistaking that the first tiing they say to ANYONE putting the
pieces together is calling them “Hitler”, well it doesn’t take an idiot
to make the connection that Germans are not 5 feet tall with big noses,
so no I have nothing to with that place, but I have a rapid disgust for
the environment I was plopped into that I had to fight my way out of
simply to be happy which meant disconnecting myself from everything
around me and I am sick of it.
I think everyone around those children aren’t completely nuts. And just
like everything else from all of the last resort is to hopelessly market
it as fucking STYLISH or something to do to fit in, which is as bizarre
as reality shows like the Trump reality show which tries to make it cool
to be greedy and lie to people and that these people’s chaos is
something fucking virtue which they’ve tried to enforce for years and
break every mirror that reflects that it is not. People are called
crybabies and pussies for not wanting to kill animals, or be upset,
which is just so insane I struggle to maintain my anger whenever I walk
around and see what is going on around me, especially in this shitty city.
It’s been a rough road never validating those ideas for shortsighted
needs when people where marketed as white, black, yellow when
oversimplication of things is something people’s brains never challenge
when reality is so much more complicated bur the real scenario
polymorphs into something so much simpler, that any unaffected child
anywhere in the world can figure out which is why them and their
environments are challenged by missionary nutjobs and corporations
trying to monopolize the services that people need and this has been in
the works for ages and is so simply to stop as long as people are
immunized with perspective that I am hoping Norwegians are coming quick
to understand in lieu of their reluctance to join the EU. There are
people who tried to abhuse and tame people and ride that bull around the
world in no direction and its about time the rest of the bull wakes up
and bucks them the hell off and go back home where they can do
everything they liked to do and pursue and whatever elsewhere in a
non-bloodsucking atmosphere. People in this place are mock are wittingly
urged to fight each other under once ridiculous label, when they never
once had an ounce of racism or feelings of superiority over anyone and
never will when the people who abuse those people point the finger at
someone else and frame everyone else. I lived in this lie and know
everything about it and not an ounce of this crap is coming from anyone
else as I have ignored anyone saying a word to me about anything unless
I had already made those connections myself and that only means that I
MIGHT be able to trust them somehow in the future. Bizarre conspiracy
theories like aliens running government is all garbage to me and just
people blatantly taking the very physical forces here with a silly way
to connect the dots of proof by falsifiability or any other set of
critical thinking skills, but there diefinitely is a real censorship
force trying to interupt everyone’s lives and natural path here. There
is a very real force contained in a certain group of people that I just
have to get away from and everyone who was abused by them here. Everyone
somehow wants to pretend and be positive about the negative things
around them and I never have, I never compromised and knew there was a
place for constant things that felt good and seeing abuse as directing
me in an entirely different direction and pointing the way where I
should actually be. But I see the exact patterns throughout relatively
recent history that are happening today, the same crazy lies and
misdirection on microforms that parallel with macro manipulation, and
these are things that are so obvious and literally points to an entire
organization of just crazy bizarre psycho people, as is anyone who looks
at the missionaries of weirdness like “churches” and so forth. There are
people who try to demonize the things they want and that caused WW2,
when the creator of the Nazis didn’t want whites to be on top, he just
wanted to be on top of whites, and he lied and manipulated people into
doing that and it’s sick how people planned that out and its only
shocking to people who still are trying to validate the intelligence of
their teachers and self-labeling people they followed without facing the
real abuse they suffered, while the people being murdered where “kin” to
people who knew it was going on and allowed it to happen for witting
sympathy, and are the only racists in the world. This is not some crazy
idea I read on the internet, I made these connections all of my own
while doing a mathematical proof by falsifiability, how could things NOT
be true. I want to forget these stupid ideas because they don’t matter
in the context of what I want anyway but its important for me to
remember all of my suffocating experiences when my logical brain would
never let anything forced in be processed. I literally came the NYC
after 911 and argued with every single antiAmerican on the planet until
I realized what that was really synonymous with which was something I
could not stand, because I always thought Israelis and Jewish people
where flaming nuts and I have had thoroughly contact with them. They
were assholes, like in my fraternity house and never adapted when they
came in, they did shitty crap and instead of changing they ran home to
their parents or behind some marketing idea of anti-Semitism instead of
face a tiny issue, like everything in front of their face is the source
of their deep-rooted problems. They used force when they were never
persecuted, we put up with their horseshit for a long time and their
lies never held up. They ran the finances, and whenever someone
criticized something they did, they threatened us and held back our
finances. One stole our house dog because they were being a jerk and
felt unappreciated when they didn’t contribute anything but harassment
for attention when they weren’t the center of attention for something
small, as they have zero inner peace in anything. I personally helped
save that dog from the streets and put personal funds into helping it,
and when one of us went to their house to get it, the guys mother
threatened to call the newspaper and threatened to brand us as
Antisemites which was just bizarre as they are void of any remote reason
or logic except seeing only their own crazy selves and their own
hopeless way to appease them unless they create it for everyone else
which will never stand. They use Antisemetism literally just a weapon to
appease some insatiable lunatics. I am not a conspiracy theorist, but
all of the abuse from the crazy “religions” here were all inventions of
those people and like that and I’ve had enough of supporting it and I
don’t have to. The Vikings came to North America and left, they didn’t
colonize anything at all and let the Indians have their land, they were
just feeling out and curious of their surroundings. But when this
religious device to give sympathy for some lazy group of hybrid people
with no ethnic identity they liked, “Christianity” mental virus
spreading made people insatiable and it spread everywhere and the goal
was taking over the world to save some made up lie which never happened
and blinded them enough to destroy populations and entire cultures of
people and it still exists today as this hopeless war of attribution
against the natural world when the entire planet is peaceful at heart
and they are annoying everyone, but they also support violence and
bloodshed which is preposterous. I’m not any label or hate anyone, I’m
just sick of this place and the people that control that waste my time,
but finding home when I was looking for a place to live ever since I was
young, put all of these old crap in perspective and I was just being
smothered. I constantly told people they don’t need anti+depressents
there or external reasons why they are upset but its not my job to waste
my time when I am suffocating in this place and I see that its just a
big blob that has nothing to do with me and fresh air comes from the
East. But this crap has manifested itself even without faith in some lie
as people are taught greed is good, you need material things, you need
tons of attention, just look at the phony smiling faces on those who did
which is an insatiable vector to go down which is all a lie. Look at
Marion Raven who came out of Norway, who had a great voice but before
she could develop anything else on her own in such a great place that is
truly original, she got lured away from home and just look at how angry
her videos are (look I abhor and HATE pop music, I only know of this
from the festival) but there’s literally artificial acceptance of being
angry as hell wanting to be some “liar and deceiver” by validating the
shit that upset her like the crooks who conned her into her working and
serving them, to validate her decision which was a reflection of her
wanting to do something fun, but she isn’t responsible for the garbage
planted in the people’s heads that lied to her and she should just go
home. I say this because its all the same crap no matter what you do,
its these stupid half-baked turnkey pre-prepared solutions for
everything like this pop crap that destroyed opportunity for really
original people, that was prepared for her that just needed a warm body,
when she should realize she’s just suffocating and should’ve developed
at home as singing about that shit somehow validates those emotions
which are bullshit when all of those people suck and there’s nothing
wrong with her. But there is NOBODY who “lives” in America who would
tell this person that, they all just think “Yeah just another reason why
this place rules, we all take credit for each other, Norway sucks, there
is no talent there as long sa we only see it under this stupid brand
bullshit we can’t outlogic”, when Scandinavia and the entire attitude
there is the source of great music like Smashing Pumpkins, Cake, etc who
have all gotten kicked out of industry and labeled “failures”, when
socialism and that biology created that and not the stupid corporations
that control the low level simple services, in a dipshit place where the
people who control who some how get credit without doing ANY work see
themselves as celebrities which is so pathetic.
People don’t realize that the shows on TV2 are doing that like Idol,
while despite conforming, over the internet people blast Norwegian TV
for sucking, so they feel the need to do more and more Americanized
crap. It’s a world of people saying “haha I’ve got your nose” and
chasing them instead of realizing it’s on their face and ignoring that
person for good for lying or even better telling those people they got
theirs. But I saw a girl CRYING after getting picked on that show and it
scared the hell out me because who the hell told her she was bad before
getting approval? It’s all so laughable until you change the channel and
see that this lie is KILLING people. Meanwhile, there are still Indians
playing their songs in Times Square subways after 300 years and people
ignore them because they aren’t on tv and they feel dumb for stopping
their path to work to listen. I’m not some hippie douchebag but there is
no place to preserve natural markets without some scumbag being in
control. So I am moving the Norway to create a natural autonomous system
that is controlled by natural people and people who believe that should
be protected. They aren’t giving up but are getting weeded out in the
context it all is being presented under brand names for people in the US
instead of being contained on itself in its natural environment with
full credit for people and resources. Real Norwegians I assume aren’t
lame and don’t sit around living through lies and fake situations on a
screen, as to me TV only makes sense to make for prisoners who are stuck
somewhere which is why so much time is spent trying to develop it for
some weird reason as such a big industry over everything else so much
more fulfilling, now that internet technology is around that the people
who understand these systems tries to protect, and I was excited that
the Norwegian guy who cracked the DVD code there was protected by the
“court system” there, how much longer will that occur if Norway someday
relies on services created and run by abused religious kooks that are
marketed as cheap, when that’s EXACTLY what you get in return. Cell
phone companies, electric companies, cable companies, “entertainment”
companies, they are all controlled by scumbags who know not of the
context of their own insatiable unhappiness and what they are doing to
people. I actually went to an interview at this new Internet Stock
Market firm wondering why people pursued the stock market and the
“executives” who wanted to interview the “Columbia brand” actually had
their sales pitch to everyone to make that their life “Greed is good”.
And I almost started to laugh, until I saw everyone else in the room
start smile and nod like some stupid toddler. I would’ve gotten mad had
I not been in cheap Target clothes instead of a monkey suit that they
tried to criticize me for making it clear I was just a tourist laughing
at them because I had inadvertently acquired some stupid elitist title
by going to that “school” that I used as a way to maneuver myself into
NYC, that I had mocked for years before going to. I just feel like I’m a
tourist in this land of idiots who can’t see themselves for what they
are, and they freak out whenever I simply comment on things based on
what they are, and not what they are self-defeating imagining about
themselves, when there’s nothing wrong with what they are, but they feel
attacked when they realize that and they wasted their time, which was
really some defensive mechanism protecting them from some abuse they
suffered when they were younger and its so sad, but I cant be around
people knowing that and having to deal with crazy bonkers crap that goes
in their minds and I worry so much for people who weren’t born in this
cult and cant see it for what it is because it will hurt them too.
People think I am endorsing their lie or something they have to maintain
in their imagination when I liked them for what they were, and I long to
be around people that already know what they are. Why do I say all of
this? Because I don’t have any idea what a Norwegian embassy is doing
here frankly or what they think they are going to accomplish with these
people and the fact that people representing Norway to the UN I hope
have no idea what is going on because that means they have maintained
their peace but why Norway doesn’t just close its borders and ignore the
rest of the planet if they are not going to call out the problems that
exist there, unless only doing this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1iNH7W9SC8
I will never know. I worry that the organizations they cater too are
complete retards, and I hope they never forget how much they are above
it and have all of this in perspective, because I’m never going to
preach to anyone about it ever again because I just want my own peace
for once and have no interest dealing with the international issue in
the world any more as there is only one and always has been only one.
Anyways, I know this sounds extreme but this is really a howl to know
someone there might be able to consider what it would be like to never
even know what Norway is, with an artificial identity, and have every
force and input around me bash every aspect of that society in the
process of discovering home. You need to please understand how this is
something I’ve contained on my own for such a long time and never
trusted anyone enough to say it and the reasons for that as well as the
implications I believe are serious and is of something that’s more than
removed any notion of this place me to travel there to stay more than
anything else I could do around me. I honestly believe in the entire
preservation of how things used to be there with all of the technology
necessary as long as the population consists of its own people. The
entire “academic” structure and environment here is nothing short of
some cult with people professing absolutism or subjectivity which is
nonsense and I’ve been bored to tears of dealing with it anymore because
I’m not learning anything and they’re all idiots. These are people who
don’t realize the voice of every single person is highly important and
that what honest people say and even the homeless people they step over
here are the real “teachers” and “professors” to what they should be
fighting relative to their own standards assuming they aren’t of the
fundamentally crazy minded people here. All of this may sound extreme,
but give me a break, you are actually trying to reason with a group of
people that somehow endorse mutilation of babies with circumcisions and
widespread child abuse and militaries that these people will freak out
only because they are repeating the same abuse to not feel inferior to
others which, pardon my language, is fucking depraved and stupid. I
strongly think that ambassadors to the UN should strongly speak on
behalf of THEIR OWN citizens who experienced that environment with a
full understanding of what it was like to live there and provide a
solution instead of constant babble and trying to reason with people who
are callous to the ways of the world and want to create their own
fortress of pretend fantastic bullshit.
No one knows that I am leaving, they just know that I’ve disconnected
myself from them and it really doesn’t matter to me to be considered a
Norwegian citizen by anyone, but in the very least see me as a Nordsmenn
that is entitled to his land, or land that no one else is occupying. I
have strong principles that the core of healthy functioning people is
being told they are not entitled to the natural land and environment
that they require to be happy and be around their own kind, and there is
a force in the world of people who are stripping people of that and
disorienting everyone, and through my experience, the gravity to this
land and knowing full well the deep unhappiness in people who except the
things they are told and have no perspective given to them and I refuse
to settle for that on any level. A nomadic “race” of people was created
who didn’t like each other, and weren’t comfortable and couldn’t coexist
on other people’s natural state of being, didn’t like each other, who
invented some logic abstract pyramid goal of trying to feel like they
own or contain or are the “caretakers” of all cultures and things and
spread a lot of witting lies to everyone that spread and abusively
haunted the lives of people for thousands of years. Nothing of
inventions like “Christianity” or “Islam” that founded ridiculous ideas
of entitlement over other people and land has smothered culture and
everyone’s perspective of who they are as they are prophets to the crazy
mind of people on the planet that deserved no sympathy when they
couldn’t change it and protect themselves from it that was labeled
“God”, and in this land so many people don’t have the resources or the
critical thinking ability or time to resecure their minds from it. I
worked many jobs and exhausted alot of effort to do so over the years
and I have the resources to propel myself and booked flights to Bergen,
Norway where I have been very excited to go to for some time. I am not
aethiestic as that as just as stupid as people who follow theology
because that mindset does exist its so stupid not to or try to play
metaphysical games when its all in the physical. People’s “heaven” is
Earth and its so dumb to think its a make believe place and the “hell”
is the abuse instead of throwing it back at the people who preached it
or dared project it on them to begin with. “Hell” was the crazy mind of
the hybrid Jewish population and that sucks but its not me and its up to
them to fix themselves and no one else sense they are too stupid and
lazy to not ask for it. They have a real contained mental illness they
spread to people around them instead of containing themselves and I dont
know how more people have to die for this to register with people
because its easy for unaffected children to sense with their instincts,
but in this place the aggressive ones are abused as early as possible,
just seconds to minutes after leaving the womb and it’s sick and these
people terrorize and manipulate people and the world to distract from
processing them until you look at them like a child does at their
behavior and see it contained in themselves. I am agnostic. I already
have. People have tried to punch, kick, and attack me in everyway before
I process how much those people suck, when I defend myself. Its like a
horse kicks when its being “tamed” and its defenses are checked with
more attacks, to try and have its brain associate defensive with attack
and I’ve never stopped bucking and no one ever needs to again the second
they recognize the source. I’m a horse that pretended to be tame and is
running home now that I found it with no need for doubts anymore. Wars
of attrition never last in nature but they’ve continued to exist for
thousands of years. WW2, Holocausts, Stalinera, 9-11, you name it, those
people all knew about it and it all hinges on criticism of those crazy
nutjobs and it ends when people understand what people are doing and any
man woman and child and animal has every ability to protect themselves,
instead of learning it like all these other animals have when they
recognize that poison in them as it never leads to peace and you are
naturally immune to it and it spreads when it poses as a solution for
people who are temporarily unhappy trying to figure out a basic problem
that they can and will solve eventually when they are fooled it is
intrinsic when doubting themselves was the source of it long ago when
the problem began. It’s orchestrated and they are doing everything
possible for people to not look at the basic characteristics of the
people who do it. I keep to myself. I am around people unless they call
me over when I am around and this place has just made me more and more
distant from people and I hate it. My blood is poison to that vampire. I
ignore that mindset and take no part in it because staying in one place
here is like constantly fighting the gravity of a blackhole. If you are
abused to thinking you are remotely related to it and don’t see the sky
from the trees then you are nuts, when all of the things you want and
enjoy obviously exist entire independent of it and people should never
project their experiences on other people and help those who don’t ask
for it by telling you what is wrong, and honestly in my life for some
reason people have a tendency to do just that but I can’t help people
who won’t help themselves but I fully recognize there is no apparatus
available for them to do so I and I intend to make it for everyone
because I want it for myself in my land and I would love for Norwegians
to help me if they want. I think everyone else separate from all of this
crap with the ability to choose would be happier if they did too and
compromise is giving up on your own peace and its like an exploding star
when people kill themselves. But agnostic people travel trying to find
home and you can see them everywhere while the rest stay in one place
and mislead other people and I think I am misleading people everyday
people see me walking around on the streets when I want so badly to be
somewhere else. They are people with no doubts in themselves but the
validity of them feeling upset. It makes me happy to see other people in
Norway but the second you let them you can deny the hope of constant
satiability by letting the identify with you, for instance if you wake
up one day and don’t see a pet dog they knows what it is, but an animal
that thinks it’s a person because it doesn’t know any better because its
never lived outside and wants to be home and if you find you are the
source of that you should feel obligated to create a home for it where
it its genetics scream to be apart of instead of getting sick validation
from a tame animal. I hope Norway doesn’t do this to its animals and
children but I hope it has the perspective to look beyond the stupid
symbol on that flag we love.
I have every intention to finish learning Norsk and consider it my first
language, and I could care less about domestic living as long as I know
what it’s like to be home (like some polar bear born in the Bronx Zoo).
I feel that my biggest enemy in my life is the wild presumptions and
short-sightedness about me that caused a great deal of inconvenience and
personal expense that I have kept to myself and never bothered a single
person with it, which has led up to this, and I assure you that I have
written this in minutes as this has been queued up for a long time. I
imagine the obstacles there of being treated as an American, or I am
some idiot selfish idiot, when I want nothing more than to work, like on
a fishing boat, or teach willing people whatever subject they are
curious about that I am very familiar with at a university, just
anything that can allow me the time to work towards completing a project
and idea I have been developing over the years that I kept to myself,
and almost had it exploited and taken from me by one of these greedy
nutjob selflabeling, attorney ridden CEOs around downtown recently that
I have very recently been able to break myself free by containing. I
doubt it’s hard for you to get a sense of how serious I am about moving
there, but hopefully you can see that I am very desperate for someone
who I can trust that can help me avoid any obstacles about being taken
seriously, as someone who already considers himself a Norwegian citizen,
but has no idea if that is something that will be required of me to be
left alone there. I have no problem arriving at a hostel and figuring it
out on my own, but I don’t know what the logistics are for me to
approach someone and ask for a job being a non-national, because I know
if I was a Norwegian I would be incredibly skeptical about any outsider
coming in especially someone who used to be called an “American”, though
I believe that peoples first reaction there walking around without a
backpack would be to speak Norske to me like anyone else.
I really need some kind of recognition and consideration of myself not
as some tourist or labeled some international student or foreigner, but
as someone who has been lost in a ridiculous atmosphere, a sanity check.
I always hated faceless paper resumes so I pulled this one together
xxx.xxxxxxxx.xxx using the resources around me and I have pictures of
myself here: Funny enough it was hacked by someone screaming for help
who identified me using an American system xxx.xxxxxxxx.xxx/gallery so
you can hack through to here
I am a very passionate person and if you had asked anyone two years ago
that I reject every aspect of this stupid American rationalization which
is a more than thorough experiment in social behavior and anthropology
at best, they would think you were mad. I cant find anything here at all
that I consider valuable or worth my time or worth salvaging, I just
want to go home. It’s a modern day myth that people here are free.
I just wanted to walk into the Norwegian Consulate and say, “It’s time
for me to go home now”, and have it processed, but I am resentful about
the reason why it isn’t that simple in the world and the global
consciousness, but I understand all the reasons why which are nothing
short of labeled taboo, to just have people appreciate their own way of
being with being attacked, in every sense of that statement too.
I reasonably cant function here and maintain my principles so I am
asking that if any of this makes sense to you, to just please give me
your input on how to best manage this when I, and so many other
Norwegian people here, have access to no information and resources.
All I know is that the person who was lured out of Norway by whatever
USA marketing scheme at the time was Ole Bonderud about one hundred
years ago, and here I am, in New York City trying to take his boat back
because this place sucks.
I assure you I am never this serious about anything else and this is
contained here, but I was stuck with trying to wonder why there are so
few things here that I enjoy, I adore fishing, it makes me want to panic
living anywhere away from water, I adore cold weather, I wear long
sleeve clothing even at the beach, I’m so pale Ill catch on fire if the
sun hits me, in relationships with people that I couldn’t help but think
were completely stupid after I was around for a while but knowing I am
not even remotely arrogant, thinking teachers and school is dumb, I
could go on and on, but basically holding everything to this standard
that would be extremely improbable to have created, all while having NO
IDEA what Norway even was, and after simply looking at a few pictures, I
started to melt the second I made the connection. I am aware entirely of
the longwindedness, and I don’t perceive any of this as a risk, but I
don’t know where else to place my situation towards some kind of
understanding so I can feel like I am at home, when I know exactly where
it is, without anyone feeling like I am some flighty tourist when I am
most CERTAINLY not running away from anything. I reject everything about
this place and I have gotten here as fast as I could from the rough
place relative to my standards, not some silly sympathy call, that I had
to protect myself from without losing what I knew was an identity that
was entirely customized to me, and now I want to know that it really
wasn’t custom at all.
Anyways that’s what’s going on and regardless of what happens Im going
to that area on Oct 25 and Im not going to let anyone stop me, and I
hope you can somehow let me know what you feel you need for me to do out
of respect for the structure already in place there.
I don’t regret writing a 100 page novel here and I am aware of all of
the typos and just wanted to get all of this garbage out there because I
refuse to consider it again, but it is the honest truth coming from
someone who blatantly can’t understand how people can’t see through all
of this crap, but I am exactly what I was when I was born and the great
thing is, none of this garbage has nothing to do with where I wanted to
go and it was just contained stupid that doesn’t affect me at all, but
this would have been alot easier if I had just been born there to begin
with and I honestly cant fathom how any soul there could be remotely
attracted to coming or moving here now that everything can be done
electronically because its a real moth to a bugzapper in this
environment. I assure you I am not venting, I just have no other way to
get someone to understand what I need when just like how I got here, I
just pack up and plop myself where I want to be and just figure out from
there. So if you could keep my brain turning by giving me some direction
that will be great but I am already doing it on my own and your help
could just speed up the process as it can’t go backwards in the other
way at this point in lieu of pressing send here as there is no more
secret. It feels good to finally say Takk to someone!!!!!
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